To work or not to work?

Here goes another incessant question that has been bugging me all this time (well ok, after I gave birth). To work or not to work?

I know I said in my previous posts that I have resigned to the fact that I have to be a SAHM while my hubby works his butt off =) But there are times (like now) that I want to go back to work again. It's become an itch that I have to scratch over and over again.

Oh I don't know.

Financially speaking and modesty aside, I don't need to work yet. My hubby is currently earning enough for the three of us to live a comfortable life. Maybe not for some but it's enough for us.

But what about me and my ego? Sometimes I still feel worthless staying at home and just "taking care" of the baby. Barbaric thought I know, but I can't shake the feeling. Growing up in the province, I remember women who didn't/can't pursue higher education stayed at home and looked after their kids (usually more than 5 kids). I don't know if it was my mother (my mother worked till her retirement age) or it was just a realization to me but I thought then that if you were uneducated you were "doomed" to stay at home. And to stay at home wasn't perceived good. Or so I thought then. Of course I know better now. But still sometimes I can't help but feel self pity. I don't know why. Most of my friends tell me that if they were in my shoes, they'd gladly take SAHMing to a new level =) But that's them.

Oh I don't know.

And if I work, I'd have to leave my baby to someone else's care. Would I be comfortable with that? You bet I am not! Sometimes, I feel like nobody can take care of my baby the way that I do. Even my hubby =)

Oh I don't know.

Can someone please answer my question. To work or not to work?