It is messy in here

I have resigned to the fact that a toddler and a tidy house doesn't come hand in hand.

Sigh. I have mentioned that I was lazy before my cousin arrived. But when he was here I was a bundle of energy. When he left again yesterday, I felt my energy draining slowly. I was back to being lazy.

So this morning I tried to psych myself. Anyway, depression or laziness is just a state of being. I could easily overcome it. And the way to overcome it is to be busy.

I made breakfast, then washed dishes, made up our bed, washed and sterilized EJ's bottle, vaccumed the place, arranged EJ's toys, folded the laundry, bathed EJ, prepared his morning snack, then finally I took a quick shower. I was smiling when I got out of the shower. But my smile froze when I saw the mess EJ made while I was in the shower for two minutes. Two minutes!!! That's all it took for him to throw all his toys and scatter them everywhere. The sofa was wet with his juice and the table was covered with his doodles. He also managed to get his fresh shirt and jeans dirty. Arrgg.

I wanted to shout but no sound came over. Instead the tears were threatening to go down my cheek. I went over to EJ and I hugged him tightly. When I looked at him he was smiling. He said "mommy funny..hehe." He covered his face with his hands and continued laughing.

I don't like clutter. It makes me go crazy. But with a toddler in the house, I can't possibly make our place look tidy every single second. I guess I have to compromise. Otherwise I will break my back arranging EJ's toys every second.