Cappuccino to go

I checked my watch, it read 8:25pm. Time to go. I looked at hubby, before I can say anything he nodded knowingly. I smiled. I grabbed my purse and a book and slowly headed for the door while praying it wouldn't make a loud noise when I open it.

I was out. I breathed a sigh of relief. EJ didn't notice I was out of the house. I can now start my "me" time.

Orginally I wanted to hit the gym. I have been a slacker for almost a month now. But I decided I didn't want to get sweaty tonight. I was craving for a quite and relaxing time. I just wanted to read a book and drink a cappuccino without any interruption.

With a giddy feeling and a book in one hand, I headed for Border bookstore on the first floor. My favorite Starbucks is inside. I love it there because the staff are very friendly. They love playing with EJ. When I am alone, they always ask me where my "boy" is. Aren't they sweet?

Before going to Starbucks, I checked some books first. "Ahhh"...I thought..."this is how it feels to be able to leisurely check the books, read the back covers without anybody tugging at my pants and saying mommy! mommy! every two seconds or dropping the book and running after a toddler carrying a book outside of the store." I almost forgot this feeling. It feels wonderful but....

I put the book down and went to Starbucks. I plopped myself in one of the couches in the corner. I flipped the book open and started to read. Just after two pages, I stopped. I couldn't concentrate. I was wondering what hubby and EJ were doing. Did EJ cry when he noticed I wasn't around?

Opps...this is my "me" time. I shouldn't be thinking about anything other than enjoying myself. I want this. I need this.

I opened the book again. But instead of words, I see EJ 's image in the book. He was having a good time with his daddy. They were playing with his Thomas and friends set.

That's it, I said. I need a cappuccino. I stood up and went to the counter. The guy behind it smiled and asked me, "where is your boy?" I answered, "at home, playing with his dad." I told you, they always ask me about my boy. When I was about to say my order, my eyes were diverted to the cakes and pastries they have on the side. I thought, EJ would squeal in delight if he sees me carrying a blueberry cheesecake. Before I can stop myself, I was ordering two grande cappuccinos and a blueberry cheesecake....to go.

I couldn't wait to go home. I wanted to be with hubby and EJ. I wanted to be part of their game. I know it all sounds cheesy but I that's how I felt.

"Two cappucinos and blueberry to go!" said another smiling staff. I picked up my order and flew out of there in a sec. When I was at the door outside of our apartment, I listened. I didn't hear anything. I inserted my key card, heard the familiar beep and pushed the door open.

EJ was holding the train, he looked up and shouted "mommy!" rushed to me and hugged me murmuring "hug, hug".

What was I thinking? What could be more important than this?


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I was racking my brain the whole day and thinking how to incorporate "used cisco" in my post. Up to now, I still couldn't think of any. LOLz.